- I should have told you the truth.
I needed to know that there was something else watching too, you know? Some higher power. Some greater good. And that maybe…
#I HATE SO MUCH THAT THE ONLY PERSON HE EVER EXPRESSED THIS TO WAS HIMSELF #THE ONLY PERSON HE EVER TURNED THIS ANGER ON WAS HIMSELF #AND THAT IT WAS A SINGULAR MOMENT OF HIS SENSE OF SELF-WORTH #THAT DIDN’T LAST AT ALL BUT QUICKLY SETTLED BACK TO ZERO #AND NOBODY WHO KNOWS HIM WOULD EVER BELIEVE #THAT HE’D EVER SAID THESE THINGS ALOUD #ONLY SAYING THEM TO HIMSELF IN A DREAM #ISN’T CHANGING ANYTHING IS IT? #SO NOBODY EVER SAW THIS #THIS WAS THE DREAM SAM SHOULD HAVE SEEN #BOBBY TOO #BUT THIS REMAINS A THING OF DEAN ALONE #NO ONE HEARD HIM #JUST A DREAM #A NIGHTMARE #EXPRESSING THIS ANGER ALOUD WAS A NIGHTMARE TO HIM
#can we just talk for a second about Sam here when Cas made the lights burst #look at him #he looks terrified #he looks just like he did a few weeks ago with Lucifer #like he’s reliving the nightmare #like it’s something Lucifer liked to do as well #and it’s bringing back bad memories #and he can now see how much he’s affected Cas
sam’s reaction fucking kills me
